1 day

Well Jos has been gone for one day and a bit. I knew in my head she was going, cos she was ready to go. But in my heart it is a bit different..

Anyway I had a fantastic birthday - my two big girls - Katty and Jos gave me a camera PURPLE. Exactly the one I wanted. I was so so stoked. They are amazing.
Dear Jeremy gave me a bead for my Pandora bracelet. (and some peanut butter fudge). Wasnt he such a sweetie. Jolene gave me two DVDs. PS I Love You and 27 Dresses.
Also had a lovely bd cake made for me.
I have such awesome children. We spent all day together - Katty made choc-chip and banana pancakes for brekkie, and then we got a picnic lunch together and went down to Waitarere Beach, which was totally awesome. Spending it with all four of my children. Definately one of my best birthdays ever.
For tea that night - I managed to leave Jos (who was busy packing) and go out to tea with Fraser. He gave me a Pandora necklace and a bead. Which was nice but really over the top as he had already given me a stereo for my bd. Tea was nice though.
Went home around 8.30 as I wanted to spend the time with Jos. Ended up taking up her pants, and checking my clothes for woollen hats etc. Then made us a lime milkshake and we watched "PS I Love You". Rather a nice way to finish the night I though.
Monday - Jos and I went out for brekkie with Jane and Sue for Sue's and my bd at Bethany's. Then we went to Audrey's to say good bye.
Went home, and Jos and I had a moccha, then i went and picked up Jolene, who ate the cereal Cherios for her lunch!! Strange child. Then we picked up Jeremy, Drove down to Welly - called in quickly at Wendy's which was nice. Then went to Dad's. Gran loved her Lilly we gave her.
Tea was lovely - nice to see the family, and the cake was nice too.
Then back to the house to say goodbye to my daughter.
Really, really hard thing to do.
Thought about not taking her back to the house, and bundling her back home - but as a mum you cant be selfish and such an exciting time, and a great time to go overseas , before she starts Uni if she still wants to do that before she goes overseas, and no boyfriend in her life.
So good for her. She is so mature and I am so proud of her.
Drove back late that night - jeremy and Jolene had their cry and then fell asleep. Would have been a great drive till Fraser started texting wanting me to go and see him. How can I stop the car and answer - which would have woken up Jeremy and Jolene. Anyway got to Sanson about midnight and got this shitty text. - "I guess I been hurt again u were down this way n couldn't come n say hi 4 5 mins not even at wrk xoxoxox"
Oh my god.
Children come before anything. Couldnt call in in the arvo - Jos was with me. That night Jeremy and Jolene were asleep - what wake em up so for school the next day they would just sleep.
Very frustrating. Have told him his love for me is very possessive.! He only needed to wait for one more day. Anyway he is coming up tonight to mow my lawns and have sausages for tea.!! Exciting huh! So i shall see how it goes.