Palmy today.

Got to work this morning - and there sitting on the desk was a harback Gwendoline Courtney - Torley Grange - sadly no dw, but better condition than the one I have. My Easter present from Sue - so that is nice. - No wonder I like my job.
Been not too bad a morning - had a few sales, which is great.
Poor Jeremy fell off his bed this morning - hurt his arm quite badly - but luckily nothing broken. Sadly though it cut short my talk with Jos. Miss Jolene was full of beans - really happy it is the last day of school, is looking forward to the holidays - and Easter eggs.
Found a sophie Kinsella book for Kat - "Can You Keep a secret" which she said she had read but she would like her own copy. So got that for her.
Annoyed with myself for forgetting my lunch etc, the joys of my boy falling off his bed early this morning, and my brain just going into "aarggh is he badly hurt - and comforting him".
Good day otherwise. No word from Fraser since yesterday. So that is good too.
Hopefully he will just get on with his life - if he was a bit more patient, and not so self-centred we would still be together.
Jeremy wants Pie and Pasta for tea tonight. So I guess we could have that. Not very healthy so will throw in a salad as well.
Spent $90 yesterday on grocery shoping - $20 of that was Christmas Club and $15 was on stamps. So not too bad.
Next week will be hardly anything - as just Jolene and me at home - she has already said though she wants KFC - she really just wants to try the Tower Burger, so we can have that.
Better go and do some work now.

Still same slow day at work.

Nice talking to Tabi on facebook today.!! So pleased she is happy with her new boyfriend.

I am enjoying talking to Josephine every day on Skype - not quite the same as having her home though. Hope her sore throat goes.

Jeremy is been a funny little soul. Is trying so hard to watch tv with me before he goes to bed. So nice too. His parent teacher interview wasnt that great, but he does find school work so hard. Poor kid. He has heaps of brains - just not the writing sort. and has a wonderful caring heart.

Looking forward to Easter and the hols!. should be good. Have Friday off. Yay. Going to do Carole's housework and feed the cat - and then go over to Eke to see Margaret, Gary and the kids. SO that should be good - havent been over to Eke for a while.

Sunday, feed Carole's cat then go and see Jane, then hopefully to Ohakea for the air show that Jeremy wants to see. Busy Easter but the kid s and I shall enjoy it.

Jeremy is already talking about going to the beach in winter, and riding on the car, or using a rope and getting rides. hehe. nice to know he enjoys the simple things of life.

Slow day at work

Such a slow day at work today. The only time anyone came in to buy was when I heated up my lunch LOL. Oh well.

Finished off Jane's copy of The Truth - the third in the Lion boy series. Not too bad. Also managed to read "The Magic Carpet" by Phyllis Matthewman. just have to cover it now.

Cleaned the outside windows, and the inside, plus changed the window display. Just have to do the banking, which I shall do soon, plus do the display table.

Have had several texts from Fraser today - why I dont know.

Monday morning he rang and said He didnt want to be friends anymore. Fine. two hours later text received:

"I hope you are happy n wat u did n how u ended us. I wish u all da best dis will be da last txt u get frm me." I didnt reply

I wished. Today it started all over again.

7.33am Tues Morn

I meant to ask u when do u want ur book back n how u want to do it since u have stuff of mine

I presume you are talking about your cake tin and key

"yes as u dont need them wat else I dont know it depends on how u feel about me

What. What else did you want back

Im not a indain giver so im not askn 4 anythg n u have photos here to

I got the idea you didnt want to see me so I was going to post your key and your cake tin back. Do what you like with the photos. They are yours

Ok so do u want to see me at all? N thanks 4 my bday present

Your birthday present is sitting here waiting for you. As you cancelled Friday night and also our tentative arrangements for Sun night. Rang me Mon morn and said you didnt want to see me again I dont see quite when I was meant to give it to you

Well do u want me to come up weds nite then straight after wrk or meet have way up to u

I would like to see you yes. But you said yesterday you didnt want to. And you seem very angry towards me which is making me hesitant towards seeing you. If you promise not to be angry etc I would like to see you on wed night.

Im only angry inside me n very hurtfull

I am really hurt too

Dat why i couldn't continue da way we were n I feel im not gd enough 4 u n il never come 1st in ur life

Weds do u want me to come to wrk if I finish early

Ok that sounds good

K ill tell my boss im finishn at 2 anythg else u want frm me

No thank you. Ill see you on wed huh. You have a good day and I am really sorry that I have made you so angry and hurt

U hav a gd day to sorry its ended dis way n ur hurtn I feel like jumpn off da roof we are paintn at wrk

Jst remember it was never me that ended our relationship n tried to turn it into a friendship

dat would never wrk.

The purple writing is obviously me. I havent replied to those last two texts. Aarrghh why am I so damn nice.

Jolene

jos love you miss miss love love you josepine it nice to but it sad ok josepine you have lave josephine it it sad sad you you have have lave lave josephine josephine ok ok jos jos it sad sad sad too jos ok goodnigth ok jos you are sad ok you re not good ok josepine i not like you because you lave ok you are not someone to like because you lave ok i love you miss you josephine but are cool bye bye
jos

So sad! Jolene's message to Jos tonight!
Not really surprising though. She had been in a bit of trouble tonight! She came home in such a grump, and then been playing with liquid in her room. Anyway, in a nice hot bath at the mo, before she goes to bed.!!

Sunday, 14 March.

Talked to Jos this morning. She seems happier so that is good. Will be good when I manage to get skype on the home comp, and we can talk. Instead of having to wait to get to work.

Changing my room around today. Well inbetween washing etc. Decided I might get more room if I put my bed by the window. Well hopefully less dust etc anyway.

The days are starting to get colder - and so are the nights. Might have to soon put on my blanket, instead of just the duvet.

Meant to be going to the beach today but shall see. WOuldnt mind a day to do nothing in. seems to be busy a lot lately.

Havent heard from Fraser yesterday and so far today, so that is good. Nice not to keep checking my phone etc, and been told off for not answering soon enough.

Someone wants Abbey books, so am busy printing them off! making them pay $15 each now which I thought was fair enough - cos ink is not cheap. - anyway coffee nearly finished so time to hang out the next load and go back to my room.

computer

Another day without my comp!! So sad. Miss it heaps. Oh well. Meant to be doing housework, but a quick stop to check emails etc.
and write in here quickly.
Bet Jos is enjoying not doing the vaccuuming today.
I have to do it.
Oh well. Have done lounge and kitchen.
Just Jolene and me last night - we had baked beans for tea - her pick, and watched Aquamarina. So that was a nice night.
Better go back to housework.

Oh my God

Just got off the phone to my boss - she is thinking about shifting Bulls bookshop down the road to just before the bridge. - and doing a cafe type as well. and I would get to do the baking. That would be so exciting.!! I have to look tonight to find the phone no when I get home.!! That would be something I would just so love to do.!!
Food and books. Two of my chief loves!! . One of my dreams might just come true.

The next day

aarggh the internet at home is down. have rung up xtra, and nope we might need the technician out. Have to try one more thing first. How annoying.
Jos is in Finland. How exciting. So awesome. I am so proud of her.
Jeremy and Jolene have not had one fight since she has left. AMAZING.
Sausages for tea last night with mashed pototao and salad.
Am wearing the skirt and top that Jane gave me today - the coloured skirt with the plain blue top.
Books arrived today was The Wicharts, and a Stephen King for a customer who will be in tomorrow.
He will be happy.
Had flowers arrive at work today. That was nice.
Text the grandparents, auntys etc to let them know Jos is in Finland.
Anyway better go and do my postings.!

Books

Yay in the post today was The Head Girl of the Chalet School. Yahoo. Give me another hardback for my collection
Also Monica Edwards The Authorised Biography. - my copy and the bulk lot.

Am reading now
"Into the Wilderness" by Sara Donati. - Taking a while though. Too many other things happening in my life.
Got to work and one of my books sold for $35. Yay. and another one for $8.

Opened Jeremy his bank acc today, so he can have an eft post card instead of taking money to school.

Slow day at work today.

1 day

Well Jos has been gone for one day and a bit. I knew in my head she was going, cos she was ready to go. But in my heart it is a bit different..

Anyway I had a fantastic birthday - my two big girls - Katty and Jos gave me a camera PURPLE. Exactly the one I wanted. I was so so stoked. They are amazing.
Dear Jeremy gave me a bead for my Pandora bracelet. (and some peanut butter fudge). Wasnt he such a sweetie. Jolene gave me two DVDs. PS I Love You and 27 Dresses.
Also had a lovely bd cake made for me.
I have such awesome children. We spent all day together - Katty made choc-chip and banana pancakes for brekkie, and then we got a picnic lunch together and went down to Waitarere Beach, which was totally awesome. Spending it with all four of my children. Definately one of my best birthdays ever.
For tea that night - I managed to leave Jos (who was busy packing) and go out to tea with Fraser. He gave me a Pandora necklace and a bead. Which was nice but really over the top as he had already given me a stereo for my bd. Tea was nice though.
Went home around 8.30 as I wanted to spend the time with Jos. Ended up taking up her pants, and checking my clothes for woollen hats etc. Then made us a lime milkshake and we watched "PS I Love You". Rather a nice way to finish the night I though.
Monday - Jos and I went out for brekkie with Jane and Sue for Sue's and my bd at Bethany's. Then we went to Audrey's to say good bye.
Went home, and Jos and I had a moccha, then i went and picked up Jolene, who ate the cereal Cherios for her lunch!! Strange child. Then we picked up Jeremy, Drove down to Welly - called in quickly at Wendy's which was nice. Then went to Dad's. Gran loved her Lilly we gave her.
Tea was lovely - nice to see the family, and the cake was nice too.
Then back to the house to say goodbye to my daughter.
Really, really hard thing to do.
Thought about not taking her back to the house, and bundling her back home - but as a mum you cant be selfish and such an exciting time, and a great time to go overseas , before she starts Uni if she still wants to do that before she goes overseas, and no boyfriend in her life.
So good for her. She is so mature and I am so proud of her.
Drove back late that night - jeremy and Jolene had their cry and then fell asleep. Would have been a great drive till Fraser started texting wanting me to go and see him. How can I stop the car and answer - which would have woken up Jeremy and Jolene. Anyway got to Sanson about midnight and got this shitty text. - "I guess I been hurt again u were down this way n couldn't come n say hi 4 5 mins not even at wrk xoxoxox"
Oh my god.
Children come before anything. Couldnt call in in the arvo - Jos was with me. That night Jeremy and Jolene were asleep - what wake em up so for school the next day they would just sleep.
Very frustrating. Have told him his love for me is very possessive.! He only needed to wait for one more day. Anyway he is coming up tonight to mow my lawns and have sausages for tea.!! Exciting huh! So i shall see how it goes.

March 5 2010

Reading: I finished The Host by Stephanie Meyer. Took a bit to get into it, but throughly enjoyed it when I did. Looking forward now to reading the Twilight series even though I am not really into "Vampire" books. - Am now reading Sara Donati's The Wilderness. Bought Into the Forest - tried to read it, but they went so much about other things that happened in the other books, I thought I would do a reread to refresh my mind about what had happened.

Jeremy is now 13. Gosh, he is growing up a lot at the moment. Yesterday, He was such a sweetie. He got $A50 from his dad, and must have thought a bit at school, and after school he asked for his money and went and bought me a Pandora charm for my birthday. And he couldnt wait to give it to me, so gave it to me as soon as he bought it. It is a really nice one - a top with a gold love heart. So thoughtful

Jos - has her VISA and is leaving on Tuesday, to go to FInland. What a lot of flying - 33 hours before she gets there. She will be exhausted.

Poor Carole is having a shit of a week. Her Dad has been diagnosised with cancer. Her Mum doesnt want to move in a home either. But she can hardly see. and now Probs with Emma. Poor Carole. Just wish there was something I could do to help.
Looking forward to this weekend. Katty is coming down. YAY. Love her coming home. Saturday I have work, and Jeremy has his birthday treat. DAYTONA. He is so looking forward to it.
Yesterday on the way to school - he thanked me for his Birthday day. That is so cool.
Slow day at work so far. Had one person in wanting Stephen King books - we didnt have any new ones so I took him onto a couple of internet sites, and have ordered him four new books - he went away really happy. I love been able to help people like that. So awesome.
Sat night going out for tea to Carole's (hopefully).. and then Sunday - my birthday. Another year older. Only thing is I still feel like I am in my 30s. Will be a nice day. We are planning on going down ot the beach for a picnic lunch, and hopefully Margaret , Gary and kids will join us. then I am going out for tea with Fraser.
Anyway have written heaps today. That will teach me for not keeping it up to date.